pub night

I had a lot of fun this weekend, of course, at the expense of getting any work done. Last night I was in a pub with J. As you probably know, I am a person who rarely go out at night. I guess I had too high an expectation about myself, hoping that I can behavior perfectly in a social situation. Ironically, this expectation gets me very intimidated in social situations. I felt stupid when I cannot understand conversation happenning right across the table in a loud environment. What if I ask the bartender a stupid question? Or after he/she gives me a list of beer, I can only understand "Miller"? Stupid indeed, but this kind of thought takes myself permenantly off the social scenes. So it is a good step to be out. And I told J. about my imtimidation, and it felt good to be honest.

I hang out with Amsobol family both days. It was fun. I knew more about some mundane stuff. And I planned to go camping and finishing with my friend next week. And I am going to play some poker tonight. I called my Niang-Niang tow nights ago (I almost forgot it because I was so obsessed with "24"). I feel it is time to write her a letter again. I will try to print some pictures online so I can mail them together. I think whenever I can forget about my work, I am a better person in general. Otherwise, just a selfish bastard.

It is easier to run out of ideas about my title than those for the real contents. So be it. I have been watching the tv series "24" in the past weeks. It was a good story, and I was equally amazed by my control over myself to wacth it only at night and roughly 1-3 episodes a night. Get much work done last week, and I feel i am in a good position for any possibilities next year. A new deadline is on Sep 10 for another chapter, and I think I should be able to finish it, no problem.

I went to the beach last night, illegally. We had a pretty big bon-fire, while discussing variaous topics, from racism to religion. I realized that conversation is a great way to organize my own ideas. No wonder people want to hang out rather do readings. I've preferred the latter, but the former might turn out to be just as good. If that is indeed true, then all my years of trying to get ahead with heavy readings will turn out to be a giant mistake.

Maybe I should take some fun classes next quarter to make the most out of my last year here. Two classes in my mind right now: Spanish and piano. Both will be cool.

do not need title

Perfect time for blogs right now. It's saturday, and I just watched a stupid movie "dodgeball" with my roommate's brother. Now there is still some time before going to sleep. These days I am very not motivated for blogs. I thought the new column I am writing for Beijing Daily would rekindle my interest of writing, but they took two of my articles, putting on the waiting line. So I just wait too, will resume writing my column when they begin to publish mine.

Just finish three-day house sitting for my friend. I think I really enjoy having my own apartment in a short term. Walking dogs, making dinners, biking to school are wasting time if I have to do it every day, but it could be fun in a short run. One dog, "Shelly", ate cat food, so I yelled at her. Now she learned the lesson. One morning, the light woke me up, and then Shelly climbed up on my bed. Both of us slept for two more hours. It is nice to have another living thing to share your bed. The cat still does not allow me to hold her. Another dog "Ren" is getting really old, and I think he will die in one year. Just think about one year ago, he was with us in Vegas, walking on the hot street, full of energy.

I am thrifty. I think about money a lot. Of course, I am saving money for something right now, and even invested money a lot bit this year and got quite good returns. However, that's no excuse. I hope I can be cooler about finance in the future. Of course, the best way is to be rich, since rich people do not care much because they have plenty. But I want to change even without being rich.

Next week is crucial. If i can finish revise this one chapter, I am two third ready for the job market next year. Also, I can claim this summer a huge succeed. I plan to recount everything I do during the summer when the summer finish. It will be a hit. All right. Go to sleep.

a day of events

I think I had an eventual day today. I was with a middle-school friend for te whole day. (Some of the followings might not make too much sense, but I will write it anyway. I will make a "blog about friend" about her soon). With her, I was always a little bit annoyed but felt challenged. I thought my way of living is positive and proactive, but in comparison to her, it is nothing. Yeah, "challenged" is the best word to describe my feeling towards her. She is indeed like a perfect reference point for me, from which I can see the direction of my life more clearly. Thanks.

I pretty much took today off. I then went to my friend's house and went back for a farewell party of another friend. I am quite able to make a good impression in social scenes. You know, to make good contacts for the future, or possibly find a girlfriend along the way. However, my problem is that I always think the time I spend in socializing is not worth the time I read books or writing papers. So I never make a commitment. However, today I decided to just relax, and it made a difference. However, what about tomorrow? I will again hide back in my ivory tower.

One major reasons for my lack of interest in socializing is because my life is still wrapped in one big secret. Fortunately, I will no longer need to keep this secret for long. The time is coming, and I think my life will take a turn too.