Special dinner

Today, Chi Theta Chi had a special dinner. I cooked a "killer shrimp soup", and got quite good reviews. Riding on my pride, I tasted all kinds of liquors, and now I think I am half-drunk. That's great. Because now I do not need to bike out to starbucks to continue my paper tonight. Rather, I had two hours to waste. Maybe I should watch "liar liar" again. But for now, let me see how much I can write for this blog entry. I sorta have the urge of finish off Yuphen entry today, but in a second thought, maybe I should leave it for a sober day.

My recent blog entries have been half-assed. Seriously, not too much going on anyway.
But more seriously, a lot have happened, and I was just not in the mood of blogging my desperation. Let me have a review. For a while, I have been desperate about my future. This past year not everything runs okey. I tried to get a job with full confidence, but results were rather mixed. It was hard to keep my cool in these situations. More often than not, I have doubts about myself, whether all the confidence was actually based on illusion rather than reality.


The summer was a turning point. At least I got my cool back. First it was the summer institute, through which I realized that I still had the potential to learn new things, and indeed I would be a good student if I eventually go to law school. Second, it was ALC program. I gave lectures there, and realized I was actually a good teacher. If I could work myself up to have a good five-minute start, the whole lecture would be a breeze. Then I got an unpaid internship in a start-up. Then I got hooked up with a law school professor. I am going to be her RA for a while. Not only it paid quite well, but also it could lead to a very good recommendation letter for my future use and abuse. Not to mention that I am write a very good paper. I've tricked myself into thinking next Tuesday is the deadline. This afternoon, before I was cooking, I was writing that paper, halfway through it already. It could be a home-run.