almost a car accident

It happened yesterday on the way from tahoe. In a fast speed, I tried to turn and stepped on the brake hard. I lost control of the car, which ran over the edge of the ramp. Fortunately, there was no walls, or road shoulders, no barriers at all, so my car just rushed into a field and stopped eventually.
WOW, four lifes in my car were all right after. I was lucky indeed.
I guess I should start doing the assignments for the dance classes. Also, I shouldn't be late for classes again. It sorta become my habit of being late for a class for 5-10 minutes. Stop it now.

ski trip

Hi, I am blogging from a small coffer shop in Tahoe city. I am in the dorm ski trip this weekend. I was added in the list in the last minute when they thought there was extra space in the car. Then it turns out not, so I drive my car instead. It is pretty cool since this is my first time driving in the icy conditions. My car worked perfect.
Indeed, the whole trip is perfect. I get away from school for 2 days, only checking my email aminute in this small shop of this obscure town. I lost one of my shoes yesteryday while snowboarding, so I have to wear my friend's slippers in this cold winter. Tried to buy a pair of new shoes in Lake Tahoe, but they are so overpriced, so just save money instead....
I went to Connie's cabin during some spare time and took photos with the totem pole. When the photo get printed out, it would be a surprise gift for them.
Now I am waiting for a phone call from Grace to go back. Those bastards are still skiing, and I am the designated driver for them. They are taking advantage of my niceness, for sure, but I do not really complain, since I get so much fun from them already.

In Hollywood. One of the few photos that all 5 of us were together 

1, 2, Action! 

My hand is full of wax. Later I keep the wax with the shape of my hand. Nice job, Hongkong. 

My speech note for the public speaking class

Three items about my past, my present and my future.

The first thing I show is a paper fan from my grandpa. My grandpa passed away 8 years ago, but the fact that he had a big impact on me only began to suck in recently. Like most Chinese families, my family also tended to be over-protected. But my grandpa was the one with a different approach. He allowed me to do things differently, exposed me with knowledge about animals and plants, brought me to magic shows, or sat with me under the sun in the cold winter morning. I miss you, grandpa, and I believe you are a great person in heaven too.

The second item is a small box of random items. There are leaves, pieces of wood, paper, stone, plastic. You name it, I have it. I collected these items on my running paths. I had a difficult time last quarter. Every time I stressed out, I went out for a run. Every time I run a campus loop, I rewarded myself a small piece of random thing I collected on the path. This box not only symbolized my difficult quarter, but also resemble my way of dealing with it. I think I came out of last quarter all right.

The last item should symbolize my future, so I bring nothing. It does not mean that my future will mean nothing. Rather, it means that my future is so full of possibilities that it is beyond my current imagination. My future would be a surprise even to me. It could be anything except cliché.

Finally, about this bag. Last Hollaween, I dressed up as a red guard with this bag. I attended a concert and volunteered to stand in front of the audience to participate in a costume contest. Before I stood up, I had the same concern as I would before I did public speech, but I finally gathered the courage to walk forward. So this bag symbolized the bravery of overcoming stage fear, just like all of us are doing right now. I want to bring this bag to the classroom today, and hope that is a bagful of courage that any of us could share. Thank you!

Buy one and get one free

So another post for today. I thought I would give you more information of how I am doing in the last post, then my stupid love story took over, so I am about to open a new lead here.
I just had a good dance rehearsal tonigh. It is good not because I did excellent job. It is good because I felt I was so open to discuss anything, my nervousness on stage, my feminine movements, my touching of my female partner. If the world sometimes has openning, I felt it presented to me tonight.
Taking about those mysterious feelings, I have another good one. I was watching in a hypnosis show last week. Hypnosis is real, I swear, although my rationality had a very hard time to digest. There are something beyond my own narrow experiences. So maybe god is a real thing after all. After this show, I guess I have more respect to the nature and will be less cynical about anything.
I am also writing my fellowship application during these three days. Supposedly, I planned to finish it by tonight. I will see. I am quite confident I will get at least one of them to support my next year.
What else. Oh, I shut off my communication (email and cellphone) for a whole day last Sunday. I felt great about it. Still running, but back to once three or four days. I should be less lazy on that too.
Overall, I had a very happy beginning of a quarter. Over these weeks, I rarely feel that I need the post-exercise anti-depressant to make my day. I am well-grounded, I am maintaining the connection with the people around me, and I am confident in making progress on my research. Besides, I might go to ski trip with my dorm this weekend!

So keep it up

So where should I start? I have been lazy for a while in updating my post on the blog. Part of it is that life is going well, so no awful thoughts need to be pushed out of my brain. The other part is my low readership. I tried to give my friends in China the link, but obviously Chinese computer cannot access to my blog site as if it is as dangerous as Falungong. So I slowed down. But hey, now I have a loyal reader hailing from LA! So here you go again.

So how is life? Some updates first. I took a great winter vacation, and then went back to Hongkong and home. I might upload some photos taken there soon. The most strange moment happened during the night before I departed. I met a good female friend back from high school. we had a nice dinner and then walked to a DVD shop to get some dvds. We shared our passion in movies. By emails, she probably knew a lot about my life, and vice versa. During our meeting, I began to notice that she is actually beautiful, a fact buried by our usual telecommunication methods (By the way, I especially liked her man-made curly hair sitting quietly on the shoulder. Ok, ok, as if you cares:-). So when we said good bye that night, I had an urge to hug her, but ended up with an awkward handshake.

The rest is so predictable if you know me well. I thought about the whole thing over that night and thought about the possibility of getting into a romantic relationship with her. The next day, I typed a two page letter in word when I was in Shanghai airport, while waiting to see whether she would send me text-message (she did not. Why should she, you have to ask). The next night, I really dreamed of hugging her, in a slow motion when people around us passed by really quick. In the following days I just gave it some more rational thoughts, and ended up doing nothing (the letter probably wouldn't see the light of the day).

So that's my story. A little bit suspense and a little bit sad ending. My final actions make me question how and where my love life is really leading. I hope I wouldn't regret in the future.