So keep it up

So where should I start? I have been lazy for a while in updating my post on the blog. Part of it is that life is going well, so no awful thoughts need to be pushed out of my brain. The other part is my low readership. I tried to give my friends in China the link, but obviously Chinese computer cannot access to my blog site as if it is as dangerous as Falungong. So I slowed down. But hey, now I have a loyal reader hailing from LA! So here you go again.

So how is life? Some updates first. I took a great winter vacation, and then went back to Hongkong and home. I might upload some photos taken there soon. The most strange moment happened during the night before I departed. I met a good female friend back from high school. we had a nice dinner and then walked to a DVD shop to get some dvds. We shared our passion in movies. By emails, she probably knew a lot about my life, and vice versa. During our meeting, I began to notice that she is actually beautiful, a fact buried by our usual telecommunication methods (By the way, I especially liked her man-made curly hair sitting quietly on the shoulder. Ok, ok, as if you cares:-). So when we said good bye that night, I had an urge to hug her, but ended up with an awkward handshake.

The rest is so predictable if you know me well. I thought about the whole thing over that night and thought about the possibility of getting into a romantic relationship with her. The next day, I typed a two page letter in word when I was in Shanghai airport, while waiting to see whether she would send me text-message (she did not. Why should she, you have to ask). The next night, I really dreamed of hugging her, in a slow motion when people around us passed by really quick. In the following days I just gave it some more rational thoughts, and ended up doing nothing (the letter probably wouldn't see the light of the day).

So that's my story. A little bit suspense and a little bit sad ending. My final actions make me question how and where my love life is really leading. I hope I wouldn't regret in the future.