So another post for today. I thought I would give you more information of how I am doing in the last post, then my stupid love story took over, so I am about to open a new lead here.
I just had a good dance rehearsal tonigh. It is good not because I did excellent job. It is good because I felt I was so open to discuss anything, my nervousness on stage, my feminine movements, my touching of my female partner. If the world sometimes has openning, I felt it presented to me tonight.
Taking about those mysterious feelings, I have another good one. I was watching in a hypnosis show last week. Hypnosis is real, I swear, although my rationality had a very hard time to digest. There are something beyond my own narrow experiences. So maybe god is a real thing after all. After this show, I guess I have more respect to the nature and will be less cynical about anything.
I am also writing my fellowship application during these three days. Supposedly, I planned to finish it by tonight. I will see. I am quite confident I will get at least one of them to support my next year.
What else. Oh, I shut off my communication (email and cellphone) for a whole day last Sunday. I felt great about it. Still running, but back to once three or four days. I should be less lazy on that too.
Overall, I had a very happy beginning of a quarter. Over these weeks, I rarely feel that I need the post-exercise anti-depressant to make my day. I am well-grounded, I am maintaining the connection with the people around me, and I am confident in making progress on my research. Besides, I might go to ski trip with my dorm this weekend!
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