rolled out

I had a very weird dream last night. I cannot remember exact, but I know that I was in a movie or some dramatic event. A kid was sent to a orphanage, but he told the administrators that he took a wrong turn on the street and that's why he ended up in the orphanage. The administrators let him go. I am the one to take the kid with me. Along the way we saw a group of kneights chasing a girl who carries a dog. I told the kid, "something bad is going to happen."

Well, that's all i can remember. Then all of a sudden, I was waken by heavy door knocking. I thought to myself, "it might be my neighbor's birthday." My roommate got up, openned the door, and then let me get up, "you just got rolled out by Bent Spoon Company." I dressed myself, hugged three girls in the hallway, and was let to a nearby dorm where we had a small meeting and some nice coffee cake.

To certain extent, I have to say I am lucky. I had some serious doubts about my approach to my life here for some time. I felt I lost touch with Chinese student community, while at the same time I could be melt into the American community. I often had feelings that i am the one who is stuck in the middle, like an isolated island surrounded by several continents which i do not have bridge to access. But recently, things began to change. I made some effort to reconnect myself with other Chinese friends while still being myself. At the same time, my big gamble of trying to dive into american culture finally seems to pay off. by "pay off", I do not intend the dirty way, as if my master plan is always to access the culture regarded as "superior". Not at all (although readers, i am not mad if you think this way). Rather, I am finally enjoying myself in a crowd that i feel that I belong to. It is like the island finally drifting toward and reconnect to the land mass, and I am not alone any more.

So that's a lot of thought for a single roll-out. Thank you, Nicole, Marcela and Melanie. You guys rock. I am going to give my best in the company.