Yesterday I had a great talk with an long-time friend. I told her that I had repressive personality. To my surprise, she was not surprised at all (Other people actually know me much better than I have realized). She was only curious about how I could pull it off, that is, being a repressive person but still living with it peacefully. Well, I dunno. I think I just apprear to be calm, but so much actually going on deep down. I just had too much consideration of what would happen if I disclose my feelings. And if you know my early life, you should know my bad social skills when I was a child. I have a hard time to figure out what is appropriate time of showing emotion and what is not. As a result, I tend to keep feelings to myself to avoid the embarrassing moment of showing emotions in a socially inappropriate way.
My repressive personality comes a long way to explain why I haven't had a girlfriend in the past 6 years (WOW, it is a long time). So maybe I should lower my threshold of say "I like you".
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