Tuesday, September 28, 2004

oh no.......

I suspect I am suffering from a minor version of depression since I came back from China. I just realized it today. When I looked online about the sympton of depression, it fits quite well. What's more, I worried that the depression has been there for a while, only having got worse when I experienced a sudden change from China.
I may seek professional help tomorrow, but I will try to deal with it by myself today to see how it goes.
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A follow-up. I called medical center for an assessment appointment, and I am feeling better already. I guess I've denied the disorder for such a long time that just admitting it has a healing function. The appointment is tomorrow, and I will see how it goes.
By the way, the girl emailed me back today, and I feel a little happier.
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Well, that is the third time I am updating this thread. And my mood swing like crazy in the meanwhile. The moment when "depression" came into my mind I hit the deep bottom, and now I am recovering. It does not mean it is a fake depression. No, it is as real as the keyboard in front of me. The difference is that now I know what I am up against.


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