Monday, September 27, 2004

back from China

Hi, my friend. I have been back from China trip. It was a fun trip. I will load some pictures if I feel like it in the next several weeks, but uploading pictures or even blogging could not express half of my appreciation of this trip.
I definitely know Prof. Walder better now. A great person indeed.
I met four college friends I had seen for 4 years. None of their life stories surprised me. Some of them are still confused, but hey, who cares. I am confused too.
Of course, my family too. I finally have to admit that I have a quite dysfunctional family. Not that I will love them less because of that. But I am sad nonetheless and feel lucky that I am now thousands miles away. I tried to do my best to listen, to heal some accumulating wounds over the years, but I almost doubt my sincerity for doing that. It is very easy for me to escape from the mess (as I am doing right now) and say,"see, I did the best". But does that reduce my sense of guilt by leaving my family behind?


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